I am thinking about the past...I feel terribly guilty about leaving my patients when I was in private practice...I couldn't do it anymore...I didn't want to tell them that I was breaking down...one patient sensed my trouble and wanted to help me...that was so kind..but I broke down big time and never recovered fully...I was a lost person...I wanted to tell all... but was afraid to come out and say I couldn't do it anymore...I still am a partly broken down person...I hide out ...but I am doing much better about defending all of us who are dealing with mental illness...

my mental illness has to do with how I see myself...I feel in a straitjacket with other persons...I lack courage...I am terrified of being left out in the cold....left out in the cold..
people will not like me...everyone will leave me...I am not wanted...

for my patients long ago---I am sorry...sorry...please forgive me....for leaving you...and not telling you the truth about my breakdown...I let you down for not sharing my mental illness