Everybody has the fears of not being liked etc... but its people with a depressive or anxiety related disorder that those themes become an overwhelming runaway train. Try to remember you are doing the best you can , and that the MI enhances the fears we have, in fact anyone who has ever locked horns with depression or anxiety can be good friends because they share the fear or have conquered the fear. Most everyone on this site is very goodhearted generous people who give what they can when they can and take support when they are in need , people here are genuine support group. If we listen or give any credence to these old tapes in our head they will keep playing, so shut them down with positive affirmations when they start to eat away at your mind and spirit , "i am a loved and valuable person" " i am a good strong friend" " I have a lot to offer those who are patient with me " " people can count on me when i feel well and they can lend support when I am weary" circle the wagons and repeat those to yourself over and over when you feel those feelings trying to take hold, and no Rome wasn't built in a day and neither is resilience but it is possible to fight these feelings when they begin and guide your thoughts in another direction.