hmmm... is there a difference between belief and trust?
i believe my T when he says he will do A or B. i believe him about a lot of things.. i dunno...
see, i believe he won't run screaming from the room, or my fav, that he hasn't bitten me yet. i believe those... but i don't seem to feel them all the time. i still feel like he may respond to me in a way which might hurt terribly, so i hold back. So i believe he would never laugh at me or criticize me... but i don't know that i'll get what i do need... so where does that put trust?
i want to trust him... but i worry a lot about whether he can do what i feel i need, because of his own beliefs and approach. This is the next big hurdle for us i think. we are talking about it in a vague way... i haven't been able to tell him exactly because i am afraid he'll tell me i need a different sort of T.
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