I hear you....i have been there as well. we are here for you. Dont leave. Dont ever think you cant say what you need to, to get it off your chest. this is a lifetime of flashbacks, of feelings of despair. but we can work through it with you. And try to make you feel better.

I hope you are doing better now. PM me anytime you need a friend. I am always online.

Best,
Colleen ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))