Both present me with extreme stress. I have bad anxiety which has kept me from recovering from anorexia. When I'm being treated in an I.P. setting I get terribly scared and begin having panic attacks.

If the staff refuses to medicate me for it I sign out A.M.A. Then they blame me for leaving. So it's a toss up between feeling like I can't keep going or feeling like I have to kill myself to stop the panic/anxiety.