yes I want gentleness and intimacy
it's lacking in my home
but that's not all
I get aroused by the female body but not by the male body

I want to do like you... stick to my faith and do right in God's eyes. It's such a rough fight though! Do you have any advice on how to "clear the system" from this? I know it's impossible to make it all disappear... but at least fade a bit.