So my geodon pooped out on me but it was a good 10 months of stability! Well goodbye geodon, hello vraylar. I brang up the vraylar to my pdoc because it's for hypo/mania and I'm a rapid cycler.

Well anyway, she's starting me at the lowest dose of vraylar for two weeks and then it doubles. BUT since I'm starting so low, she still wants me taking just one dose of geodon during the day. Well if anyone knows anything about addiction here [emoji112]. 24 hours after I take my 60mg geodon and it leaves my system I get sick. Cold sweats. Shaking. Your run of the mill WD. Well I have a ton of 80mg left and I want to go lower than 60 to help feeling sick. So I opened the 80mg and took only half. I've googled and read some horror stories of people quitting geodon. And these pdocs know nothing about being sick because your body has been living off it for a year and it gets taken away. I'm hoping in a week and half that my vraylor will help with that.

I'm feeling so ill from cutting down the geodon, I can't eat. And I've been turning to drinking... still. Just to ease the annoyance of WD. Taken more Ativan to sleep off the illness too.

Sorry just to vent there. I hate that there's meds that made us addicted with no warning. I used to take risperdal PRN for anger and when my family dr saw that he said "you know that's a horrible med to come off of". Ugh. I quit. Just let me be addicted to all them!

So I'm doing what I usually do when I feel that sickness creeping in. Take Benadryl (a lot) all day and sleep it off. Then once I wake up i go buy my beer to just get numb.