I hope you're doing okay today. I understand, it's so hard to function and make progress when your mind is cranking out such negative, abusive thoughts. When I'm depressed, I have intrusive thoughts that are a booming voice telling me I'm a waste. It's just thoughts, but it's so loud and out of my control that people have actually seen me flinch when I hear it, and they don't know what's going on. It's really hard to push back against these forces that seem so powerful.

I deal with these kinds of things by personifying them and creating an objective separation. Then with practice I can choose not to listen to it. I got out of alcoholism and anorexia that way. That booming voice is tough though. When I'm depressed, it definitely is a challenge.

You are worth every effort it takes to get better. Can you come up with a plan as to what resources you'll contact and what treatment you need?