I have wanted to post for ages now. About nothing in particular. One day i want to be really cheery and smile at everyone and be encouraging. The next i want to be humorous, or post my favorite song or something. The next i want to write a post about the depression. The next i want to write that i want to give up, that i just don't care.

I'm flipping from one emotion to the next. It is exhausting! I thought these meds should be quieting my mood swings... I'm writing this in here, because it is not about depression and there was no other place that seemed appropriate. I just wish my mood would stay still for just a few minutes.

I wish i knew what to say to quieten my mind. I'm like a wound up coil on the verge of being released.