Hi T

I'm at a really bad place. I wish I could text you. I need you to tell me what to do.

Call the crisis line - What if they hang up?
Go to the crisis center - What if they tell me that I'm overreacting? Or if you'll end up thinking I overreacted?
Try emailing you and hope that you read your mails on a weekend?

And then, you're leaving for vacation soon... It'd be manipulative to be in a bad state now. Urgs.