Writing clarifies things for me sometimes. I wrote this elsewhere in a thread:
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I need to accept that my "controlled drinking" inevitably leads here. That's hard because every time is different - I can tell because I looked at the calendar. Seriously, I keep looking at it as more experience and knowledge about where the land mines are so I will avoid them instead of mounting evidence that proves I can't. It's hard.
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What is good about that is also what sucks about it. I stated pretty clearly why I can't moderate as much as I would like to.
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|Up and down
|And in the end it's only round and round
|Pink Floyd - Us and Them
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|bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD
|lamictal, straterra
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