H is being actually pretty supportive of my current t struggles. We were talking about it last night - he noticed that I was looking sad - and asked why and I explained a little of the latest. That I had emailed her some feelings that resulted in that question that resulted in my answer "i am out" and her cancelling my appointments next month and me asking for a session to say goodbye and she said to just call if and when. He didn't yell at me, he did ask why I emailed her since we'd already agreed to take 4 weeks off. I said because I had some strong feelings, you just don't understand, I didn't ask to see her or anything. And he said "I know she helped you a lot for a long time, but in the past few months I don't think she's helping you anymore, he said she seems to be hurting you instead of helping you and I love you so much, I hate to see you so sad." He really blew me away with all of that. He said I know you keep saying you want to "end things the right way" but he said I don't think there is a right way. I said well I don't want to leave on bad terms. He said why? She doesn't care. You're just a client, a paycheck, she'll move along to another one. I said I don't know. That's just who I am - I care.

It was a good conversation, I did cry a little bit but not so much that I couldn't talk or that he got upset. I think that I have judged my husband unfairly in the past and not given him a chance to really say what's on his heart. He was very helpful to me last night after we went to bed and had that conversation. I should give him a chance more often.