Been having a bit of downs lately but the anxiety is the worst. It mainly has to do with driving and other mother ****ers on the road that can't drive. It just makes me so angry and I get so anxious. My pdoc says to take calm aid which is lavender oil in pill form. ffs. I swear to god I'm sick of paying for supplements. My meds are free right now cause I met my out of pocket max on my insurance. I'm already taking saffron and sensoril too, not sure if they're doing jack ****.

My pain levels have been super high. They posted my MRI results on the drs website today and i have 3 discs in my neck that have degenerative disc disease and 1 disc that's extruded. SO MUCH FOR MY ****ING DRS IDEA THAT IT WAS ONLY GOING TO BE ARTHRITIS. gah it makes me mad. Like I'm not sure how to explain this pain I'm in. I can't do jack ****. I'm lucky if I get our meals done 3 times a day. I don't want to be put on narcotics, but if they could pump me full of cortisone every 4-5 weeks I'd be fine with that. It makes me rage though so I'm not sure my husband would like that.

Anyways things kinda suck right now. My IBS has been bad and the bentyl I take for it makes me a bit agitated.

I did start with a new therapist though so maybe he can help.

I just want everything to ****ing work.