OK, this is a difficult post but I would like to hear your insights. I’ve posted before a little bit of my background. Quick review: I experienced some sexual abuse in my early childhood and am currently in a relationship that becomes abusive at times. I started therapy several months ago because I had withdrawn from the world leaving my children in the direct line of fire. Therapy has brought me back to walking among the living. I’ve always been a bit of a work-alcoholic and emotionally detached. Don’t talk, don’t trust, don’t feel has been my way of coping. The last month of therapy has started to crack the ice a bit and I am trying to make some changes in my life. Unfortunately I may be paying the price for this new insight and awareness. My relationship with my kids and friends has improved dramatically; but I’m struggling to deal with the other emotions that surface. Therapy is helping me feel less threatened (which is good). But at the same time I’m experiencing a lot of negative feelings. I think what I am experiencing is guilt. I don’t think it’s really about the abuse itself but more about my response to it both then as a child and the way I treated a few people throughout my adult life.

Have any of you experienced a rush of negative feeling about yourself and who you are? If so, how did you deal with it?
I don't need to hear --you were a child--you were the one abuse--its not your fault. I understand these comments, but the negative feeling still surface.