Hi I'm not sure if this sounds weird or not. I was molested as a young child for a couple of months. There are also many times I can not remember where I would of been alone with my abuser but I can't remember anything. I also have lots of blank memories whilst I know the csa was happening. For example all my memories are of it happening in the day but I have no memories of going to bed or anyone putting me to bed. After my abuser left I went through a stage of sleeping on the floor as it felt safe. I have never received oral sex from any of my boyfriend's. They have tried but I've always stopped them from going down there. The thought of receiving it makes me feel sick and I get this big fear going through me. I don't know why I feel like this as everyone one else I know who talk about it loves it but just the thought or talking about it makes me wanna be sick and squeeze my legs together. Is anyone else like this?0