Ah, it sounds like you are misunderstanding what I said about how my therapy is about figuring out what I can do to build up my resources to help myself. It has nothing to do worth being a child - I'm an adult, obviously. But I suffered childhood trauma and early bereavement, and I have carried so much grief through my life - I just didn't know how to cope with it, and I tended to shut down a lot when things got stressful. Figuring out ways to take care of myself instead of collapsing internally has been so helpful to me.

My therapist doesn't tell me what to do or how to live my life - his modality is non-hierarchical and we are equals in that room. I have no interest in being told what to do either, and I can't even imagine my therapist telling me how to live my life.

Anyway, I get that you are looking for something different from your therapy, which is cool. There seem to be as many reasons for being in therapy as there are people on this board. I just wanted to clarify to make sure I wasn't being misunderstood.