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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom
I know I have value in my family. I’m the only one that brings in income (from SSI). My husband is considered my caregiver. I know I have to survive to keep our lifestyle but I don’t contribute to society at all. How can I? I can’t even talk to them, I’m paranoid of general population, animals aren’t my “thing”, and leaving my house is tough, I’m having very dark thoughts. They seem logical but I know they’re not. A part time job will make up the income I bring in. My son can get his licence to stay in school. I know at first they’d be all ****ed up. It’d be rough for them but time will make them okay.
I feel like a waste of space but I can’t leave them. I guess I’m still useful to them. I know they love me but I feel like I’m in the way. I feel like I’m ungrateful when I’m not. Has anyone been on an AD temporarily? I don’t see pdoc until mid september.
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Hi MM, that must be so much pressure on you. So you receive SSDI, too. Has H applied for disability or can he get a job?
Housing is so tight when we are disabled. I can't afford housing on my SSDI. I tried it, but I was pinching pennies and if *anything* came up....like a car repair - well, I couldn't swing it. I ended up moving back in with my stepdad, which felt humiliating as I'd moved out when I was 18!
I hope you feel better...you are not a waste of space! Quite the opposite.

I am on two AD's - they aren't temporary. I need them. Are you considering go on an AD? What else are you taking? (As you know, I have not been here for awhile.
PM me so we can keep in touch and I'll do the same. xoxo, glam