morning couchies! i'm up with the birds, can't sleep, woke up at like 4:30 and stared at the ceiling with tears in my eyes and super-strong feels about my t mess. I wish I knew the way out of this. as the sun comes up and daylight arrives i'll feel better.

i've never had long fingernails. i bite them off constantly. i know it's a gross habit but i can't stop doing it oh well.

I really need this shamanic clearing thing I'm going to today. it's not til noon, and it's only 5:40am now, but it'll be here soon enough I guess. It's my Reiki Master that's doing the sessions today so I know her well enough that I'll share a little of what's going on with her. I'm sure it will help a lot to if nothing else clear out some of the negative energy/emotions that I took on from t that isn't even mine to be bearing. Liike that article somebody posted not long go - I carry a ton of rocks in my backpack that belong to other people.... maybe E can help me put some of those down today.

I am feeling better already just writing about this.