I didn't perceive you as incoherent - I think you're an intelligent person who writes well. I respect you. For whatever reason it started to feel like we were just banging our heads together though! I know that you have had a fairly similar experience to me in terms of your feelings for your therapist and I think in a lot of ways we are on the same page.

Sorry you have stuff to don't want to think about... Glad I could provide a bit of a distraction!