I relate, a good deal more than I'd like! I'm in a situation now, I feel like I gave my best, only to get another's worst. Is it me, what c/should I have done (I'm asking myself) ...I am afraid, Hon, sometimes the answers just don't add up. It hurts and I feel for you. For me, I have to convince myself, I try doing good by people. We do our best, right? No, I know that's painful x