This is our way being these days after the med reduction, but anymore puts us over the crazy top.

I do sorta miss it- the energy and joy of living perpetually, but looking crazy with heart thumping anxiety isn't the way to live: gets quite embarassing at times.

Don't get me wrong...this is how it it needs to be- it's cheaper in the long run because it made us drink like a case of beer a day which is now down to a 6 pack or so.

So, I'm ready to accept this stabile and gray state of being as the new norm. I guess you would call this "sensible", lol.

I did try going off meds....but the memory of the years before meds finally floated up in mind from the hidden and dark recesses...all my exes saying I need anti-depressants.

I wonder how many people are over medicated then neccessary, making them loopier to only be prescribed more? Probably a lot more then we know or think.