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Originally Posted by nyc artist
Thanks for the hug...I needed it today!  This why I think I am so upset...I told him many, many times how the summer months are the worst for me, and specifically July. He KNEW I needed that time. He really did. He did this to me two weeks in a row. When it happened the first week, I reiterated that I needed my appointments and it happened again the next week (last Friday). It was so bad that I had to make an appointment with a different T for last Friday because he wouldn't give me my time. The other T appointment wound up falling through (because my T didn't get back to me in time...extra hurt), but the other T emailed and said he couldn't understand why my T would not make time for me because it was obviously important. I keep asking myself the same thing. He knew I needed the time, so why didn't he do something to fix it instead of just apologizing? Ugh. I don't know. I do hate feeling that I need him so much, but I literally have no family/friend support system. He's it. And I feel like he really screwed up here and he doesn't care because he didn't try to fix it. If my situation weren't as bad as it is, I really wouldn't care about these mistakes, but it IS bad and I DO need him. It sucks.  |
I'm so sorry and yes it is easier to understand now. Have you thought about looking for another T? While you really like this one if he can not give you the respect and care you need it's time to find another one. You've already been traumatized enough in life you shouldn't have to pay to be treated that way.
Start looking around, there has to be a lot of T's in NYC. When my sessions were scheduled 1-2 months apart with the VA, I sought out online therapy. It was direct pay but cheaper than a f2f encounter. But it was what I needed between sessions to get me through. But having two T's can be a little overwhelming also.
Also you have support here. This is my main support system, in time you will know who to talk to and who is really listening. Though we are not T's we can be here to listen, maybe share what we have tried and worked or didn't for us. But it gives people an idea of the options out there.
Of course the bottom line it's up to you as to what choice you make and sometimes they are hard choices. You have to do what's best for you and you have an idea on what that is. Don't sell yourself short.