Childishly, I used to believe love was something fanciful, I expected it to be perfect.. Recently, in trying to learn to love myself, I've realized it can actually be hard work. There are so many needs I need to meet, and I have to give up some activities I like in order to truly love and care for myself - such as staying up late, eating whatever I please.. Love is not about giving myself everything I want, that's just not possible. I need to set boundaries as well.
I'm sharing this to make it more real for myself, to clear my thoughts on this. I just need to understand that when loving myself or others feels difficult, it doesn't mean I'm doing it wrong. I
can sometimes get frustrated, tired, jaded.. That's all part of the picture. What matters is that I keep doing it even when it's hard, and ask for help if I need it. I'm so glad to realize this because it means I can love better from now on