I guess my biggest problem is that my relationship with god started out as resentment since as a child there were times I wished I was never born and started to challenge the way he treated me, and how he treated other children so much better,even though I did not do anything before I wished I was never born to get the treatment I got..I did not even know how to read let alone understand salvation and the bible...all I knew were someone else's warped views
and real life disfunction

But slowly I started to go toward him in a positive way as a adult, still hard for me, even after I have become blessed beyond believe..but I am trying

but the fact is I believe I have always tried to be a good person despite my past even when I resented god