I've never written about this. Talked to a few family members but that's about it.

Ten years ago we lost our 23 month old niece to a household, preventable accident. We don't speak her name. Our family has not been the same since.
It's become a marker in our life when everything just fell apart including my marriage.
My SO has decided yrs ago to blame this adult family member for this preventable death & has not spoken to his siblings since. My job, since then, is to go against his wishes & keep contact going because I believe it was an accident.
Forgiveness is just not in the picture. The anger that is carried from this tragedy is STILL fresh.
I still cannot wrap my brain around this Huge albatross that straps my family. It makes me speechless.
I can't live with all this anger inside of me, my own issues & this mess on top of it. I feel buried alive by it.
Every year it comes around.