Thanks for responses.

My T is trained to work with people suffering from trauma of various types. I can't afford to see anyone privately, and I can only get CBT on the NHS. That didn't help wich is why I'm with current T.

I see him through a charity that provide counselling and therapy for people who otherwise couldn't afford it. My T has admitted he couldn't literally / biologically share in the experience, but I know he can empathise well enogh that that isn't important....does that make sense?

I have spoken to my health visitor about it, but she thinks talking with my T is the best bet because he knows my history and has insight in to my though process. She said seeing someone temporarily would only give me 'general advice' which (off the record she said) I'd be as well looking up online at. If the sleep deprivation / disturbed sleep continues I would consider meds.

I must be the only mum who has a baby that sleeps through, but is still sleep deprived I think being constantly told that now I have a healthy baby I shouldn't still be thinking of the other isn't helping. It's also coming up to what should have been his/her birthday...