I went to game nite. I didn't really enjoy it. I felt tired and depressed. And nervous. I kept thinking about doing drugs. All I want right now is endless amounts of drugs

I tested T after I left. I said I want drugs real bad. He sent back glad you came.

Idk. I hate being this way
I hate it so much
It makes every day an uphill battle and I'm tired of it
I do not like that i am this way at all

And its one of those things... U know. Being a drug addict. You're always one. There is no cure
I struggle to see the point