(((anna)))) its dont be hard on yourself... you have these feelings for a reason though the reason may not be clear right now...

let the love of your family take over the fears... ive been uptight about the family get together too, but, its just too much work feeling that way... its easier if i just smile inside and out and stop worrying...

let yourself feel all your feelings though... it'll be over soon and the New Year can begin ...