Thanks. I have been here a few times before; hopefully I will make it "stick" this time. The early part isn't the hardest for me. About 6 months in I start telling myself I have proved I can stop when I need to, so a little something here and there is okay. The urge never seems to go away. I have not done any illegal drugs in over 25 years and I still crave pot and boomers (mushrooms).