thank you for responding

I always think it’s more than introversion, because it stops me from doing things and I avoid doing things because of my feelings and thoughts. But I'm not always sure what the thoughts and feelings are? It bothers me that I don't know my own thoughts.

I already see a psychiatrist, and I’ve seen two other psychiatrists and been in the hospital once. The first doctor I saw dx me with schizophrenia, and the next one I think just followed the treatment plan for the program, and the one I currently see is trying me off meds to see how I will do, because they said there was never any real certainty I was psychotic, just the first doctor dx me and then they didn’t know. When I was in the hospital they kept the dx the same, but, I think the doctor there also thought it was something else, just they didn't know either.

I don’t want to do anything anymore... but I think it’s not depression. I don’t want to do things, it’s hard.

I'm not really sure what goes on in my own mind. I think that's what bothers me the most....sorry.