depression...

rumination...

i guess i shouldnt of expected to feel ok for too long anyway...

dont know what i am going to do...

i cant keep doing this... i see no way to fix it... no way out...

im so tired of this life... being broken...

i am starting to isolate... i dont want to be around anyone like this...

deeply ashamed of my afflictions...

i just want to give up... feels like nothing really matters anyway...

i make myself sick... to be like this... ****...

why do i keep living... there is nothing for me here...