As I'm in bed I have thoughts of going out and enjoying myself but most of me says stay in cause no one wants to see you outside. Not for gym, not at bar nothing. I feel my weight is still haunting my self esteem. I'm scared I'm gonna get jealous and looking at beautiful women knowing they don't want me, how silly I'll look at Kung fu, everyone at gym saying this fatty should be on an elliptical not lifting etc. I know I shouldn't believe what others think, but it has/is affecting me. I think I need a t appointment stat.