For weeks now my head hasn't been quiet. I have hyperacuity so I hear everything that is going on even remotely near me and then my brain takes everything I hear and turns into part of the soup I keep hearing--snippets of music, words, conversations, thoughts, all blended together and playing all the time. I am so tired of it. I've been avoiding as much as possible but now my neighbors are playing music at what seems to me to be probably a quite loud volume and so I have even more getting stuck in my head.

Tomorrow I will have taken my new dose of clozapine and will probably sleep through much of the day. I may finally get a break. But I'm scared that I'm now going to hear another month worth of the music they are playing. I am so tired I don't want to get my earplugs and it's already stuck in there anyway. I think there are 2 neighbors playing music so it's all mixed up, country and pop. Must.get.earplugs.

I hate increasing the med but I really do just want to go to sleep (and that isn't happening without drugs).