I think it might be prudent to go back and clarify what is real versus what you have possibly placed on the therapist. I agree there is no perfect anything - but a lot of this seems to be mind reading on your part and it appears to me that usually when you go and actually talk to the therapist - things are not always as you have imagined. I also don't understand why you spend so much energy and angst over the end therapy when you seem to derive something from it - at least it seems like you do when you are not waiting for signs or dreams etc that it is over.