My therapist tells me the reason why I can't go to the grocery store (or out in public except routine stuff like work, bank) is because I have thoughts in my head that I am unsafe, that I should just go home, that I can't be alone.
But even when I tell myself that I am safe, I need to just get what I came here for, nobody is judging me... I still have the feeling. The feeling that I am disconnected from my body, and this world - that I am unable to function in it the way many people are. This floaty prickly uncomfortable feeling.
Maybe the thoughts are involved in this somewhere but to flat out say that my feelings are caused by these thoughts, I feel like is just oversimplifying it, it's more like a circle isn't it? It started in childhood and now it's just some destructive circle I'm trapped in.
What do you think?