Session with potential new T yesterday who's a psychoanalyst.

She was kind and thoughtful -- nothing spectacular (or terrible).

But, for the first time and among all the therapists I've seen, I had a visceral sense that she could take whatever I dished out and I wouldn't need to take care of her. And, that nothing about me -- even in the most literal sense -- would be truly foreign to her. Not that she'd have perfect understanding or attunement but more that she'd be curious and make a good faith effort to understand with kindness (rather than distance herself from it).

I can't figure out if all that -- stuff I feel is missing with current T -- is enough to make the switch and get over the loss of my connection to current T.