I walked around in shadows for about 3 weeks
following an episode of torture and sex abuse

My brother helped me out of it. He seemed
to know something was wrong!
He said "I know what will help you.Here
take this medicine.(it was Castor oil)
when I took it suddenly I was out of the
shadows in the sunshine looking under
the house where the t.... and ab..... took place.
I felt back to reality in a sense and felt grateful
to my brother.

Another time similar shadows etc and unawareness
of what was real or not
and my elderly neighbour called me in.
She said 'you do not have to let ......... do those
things you know?
same thing I came out of it and felt grateful to her.
But I remember every second of torture and sex abuse.
I can picture it very clearly anytime I want.(but don't want to)
its these shadowy periods I can't remember much except
shadows....(I have only mentioned 2 times but there were
much more than 2 times. I have not really sought help for it before.
sincerely wondering about this!!!
and appreciate answers from those that understand.