I relate so much to this feeling. Im 27 and have always hated having a job. But it was what i was supposed to do so i alway kept a job. When i was just part time it wasnt as bad. I had been at a company for awhile had some vacatio n but it wasnt wnough money so i had to go full time. It sucked i hated having to wake up so early and spend the majority of my day working. Even at full time i dont make enough money to move out of my parents house. Even if i was more finacially responsible i STILL wouldnt be able to move out. Im so tired of feeling like im working towards nothing but getting through to the next day off. I feel like i have no freedom and my life revolves around having a job. I recently was unemployeed for 2 months. Best two months i had no money but just havong back the freedom was so great. Now havong to go back to full time i have the same feeling of like what is wven the point. I struggle with a lot of depression and anxiety and having a regular 9 to 5 makes it so much worse. I feel like no one understands the way i feel. It all about suck it up and deal with it. It called being an adult. I just want to scream with frustration. I also in pain constantly because of standing on my feet all the time. I cry almost every day out of frustration and pain. People are tired of hearing me complain but wven writing it feel better but it all will just come back the next time i have to work. I feel so defeated.
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