Hah! I was thinking of EM's situation too although yeah, it's different.

The part I'm also really struggling with is whether I'm asking for way too much from a therapist -- current T has bent over backwards and then some for me. So, even if she's said all of the stuff she's said (like I'm reaming her out; overwhelming her; attacking her; etc), if actions are to count more than words, that should mean something -- except I feel like I've worn her down to a point where she'll do anything to appease me. So, I've started putting boundaries (like I refused phone sessions over her vacation; refused to schedule a session when she said she'd have to adjust something with her kid although she said she was totally willing etc) -- I was telling this other T about it and she asked "Well, who is taking care of who now?".

It all feels like such a mess -- current T will of course say that she's resilient and was just having an authentic response to my crap and so I shouldn't assume that she's lost the plot internally. But, I just can't tell any more.

Btw, thank you