thanks all for the support last night. i had a mental breakdown and was seriously not in good shape. i texted T for support and he responded which was surprising. i managed to eat and did feel better. i know T would say, I TOLD YOU. i know logically that eating is what one should do. i dont know what my problem is. i just forget, or ignore it, idk. push it to the limit. idk. i am dumb

T asked if i need to go to the hospital. i said i dont know. he sent back I'll send the police. i said no thats scary. whats with him wanting to call the police all the time. i DO NOT want to be picked up by cops again. that was SO SCARY the last time. i recognize he cant do much else. but , yeah.

i went to work today 10-4, im getting the hang of things. theres a learning curve bc at this store they do not scan anything. its all hand keyed into the register. so i need to memorize the sales and departments. but both CSMs said i am doing really good. everyone is very friendly and its low key. and air conditioned !!!!!

im supposed to see T tomorow then go to my mom's ( ) she wants me to come with her to visit my sister ( ) i feel obligated so i'm going. i can hear unaluna in my ear now!!!!!