How do you get angry? I know that seems like the stupidest question ever, but I seriously don't know how. T knows this too. I was never allowed to have emotions as a child, so I don't have them now. T keeps telling me that it's ok to be angry and I'm like..ok..so teach me. We haven't gotten to that yet. Poor guy...he's REALLY earning his paycheck with me!

As soon as I sat down today, he brought up his mistakes and he owned them, again, but his apology had little effect on me. I told him that his apologies didn't change the fact that he really let me down and wouldn't make time for me when he knew it was so important. Here again is the problem with my lack of emotions/feelings...I feel like his apology isn't sincere and he is just saying it to shut me up. I was taught at a young age that apologies meant nothing (although it was in reference to my apologies meaning nothing...family never apologized to me). I honestly don't know if he was sincere but if my past T experiences tell me anything, he doesn't care at all that he hurt me. Oh well, we move on. I don't hold grudges (for more than a week-ish ). But I am proud that I could tell him exactly how I felt, I've never been able to do that before.