Thanks everyone for your input, I value each of your opinions.
I've had crushes before just never that consumed my mind like this and that's what scares me. I really do hope this is just a crush. I would never cheat on my wife so I will not be acting on these feelings. As I said I know I don't know this woman very well but cutting her out of my life entirely is simply not possible right now. I've been trying to limit my interactions with her when we are working together but its very difficult to do so and as a result I feel like I'm getting to know her a little better each time.
My wife and I have said some harsh words to each other in anger and she has said to me on more than one occasion that she thinks she will be a single mom one day. I think that has kind of been playing in the back of my mind a little bit as well during all of this, like maybe I would be doing her a favor if I wasn't with her, ultimately I would like for her to be happy. Call me selfish, by at the same time too though, I would like to be happy.
I obviously want what's best for my child and I know that would be in a loving household with a mother and father who love each other. I would say our fights have slowly been getting worse with time and I fear if things keep progressing this way that eventually it would be a bad environment for a child. I know we need to do something to stop this before it gets to that point. The fact that she's pregnant just complicates things further. I realize our lives are going to drastically change once this baby is born, I don't want this baby to suffer because of our actions.
I agree that there are a number of woman who I could have had a happy marriage with but I guess I'm a bit of a romantic and also believe there is that one special person for everyone. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe Hollywood is partly to blame, that's just what I believe.
We try to talk once in while, we both listen to each other and hear what the other is saying but nothing ever seems to change.
This woman knows we are expecting a child, our interactions have not been flirtatious by any means, its strictly been professional, but I can't help but feel there is something between us. I truly hope I'm wrong but I'm just second guessing myself now. What if there really is something special with this woman that I don't have with my wife.
A couple of you said you think may be this woman represents something I'm missing, what do you think that could be? I know this is purely subjective but maybe you can open my eyes to something.
I still feel like I could be in the honeymoon stage with my wife if she would show me physical love like she used to but she doesn't feel that way. I know I need to give her more emotional love but its hard for me to do that when I don't get physical love.
Sorry, you all made some good points and I realize I'm kind of all over the place with my thoughts but my head is a mess right now.
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