Well we can't make a diagnosis here but if it is to do with trauma it is likely to be on the PTSD- DID scale.
I really feel for you, it would be a very good idea to seek a therapist to help with this. You don't need to suffer with this alone and you are very brave to talk about this here.
Therapy really would help.
I send gentle hugs
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