Does anyone else struggle with the job search process simply because they feel horrible crippling guilt and anxiety when asking for references? I feel like I'm wasting people's time. Not to mention that I HAVE had a negative response from one person I asked who was suggested by one of my other references. I needed to have five references for one job and I was having trouble finding a fifth one that was relevant.)

I also don't have a huge long list of references, because I can only use half for some jobs and the other half for other jobs because of each persons' relevance to the job, if that makes sense.

I'm quiet and I don't know a lot of people. And I'm so afraid to ask...even people who have no problem writing one. I feel so HORRIBLE.