Long story short, I'm in a 20+ year emotionally abusive marriage that had escalated in the last three weeks to threats to kill me, an incident of physical violence and culminated 5 days ago with him setting a fire in our living room floor. He barricaded himself in the house and a 6 hour standoff with the police ensued. Our neighbors were evacuated and the neighborhood was cordoned off. He was arrested and is currently in jail. This was the breaking news in our fairly large city.

I don't know if this counts as trauma since no one was hurt and there was only property damage, but it seemed fairly traumatic to me. I was humiliated by this whole thing. Since this has happened I've had multiple panic attacks. One panic attack was in the middle of the grocery store and seemingly happened for no reason. I've had a lot of anxiety in general. Being around people for too long makes me anxious, even people that should be safe like my therapy group. I'm not sleeping well. I'm exhausted all the time. I feel emotionally overwhelmed and depressed. I've been suicidal. I just want to lay in bed and hide under the covers. I have things I need to do, but I can only get things done in small increments.

Are any of these reactions to an event like this even remotely normal? I'm starting to feel like a crazy person.