Wow, it sounds like you're in a difficult situation.... but it also sounds like you might be walking down the path of Erotic Transference and if I could go back to the stage where you're at now... I'd run and never look back. Because that would've saved me from the torture of falling in love with a man I could never have and it's incredibly painful and made me even sicker than I was when I entered therapy. Just a warning.... No therapist is worth playing with fire because you always get burned. But you don't have to take my word for it, you can see for yourself if you choose.