I have a recurring emotional memory that is just that - emotions. I sort of remember places but that's vague and no people. I have this one of a sandy dirt road that I think is from the FL Gulf Coast because we went there so much when I was very young, but I am no positive. The sun is out, it is pretty intensely hot and I am incredibly happy and it doesn't feel fleeting; it's being loved, taken care of, content and enjoying everything. One of my escapes is sitting back in my zero gravity chair in the hot sun (with sun bloc or shaded if it is hot enough), closing my eyes, having the sandy dirt road rise up in front of me and the emotions wash over me. Sometimes I lay there an hour or so.
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|Up and down
|And in the end it's only round and round
|Pink Floyd - Us and Them
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|bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD
|lamictal, straterra
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