I hope you can get financial help.

My husband married me during a serious manic episode. I was hypersexual and very charming. I probably looked pretty attractive in those days. The good news is that we have stayed married 31 years. There have been a lot of bipolar ups and downs during that time. My husband just educated himself on the illness and goes with the flow. I know I am incredibly lucky.

Try to get the energy together to keep looking for help. My gut tells me there is something out there if you can find it.