Had a very interesting appointment with T. This was my first appointment since meeting with EMDR t. I had emailed her the day after the appointment to tell her it went okay and all that. I told T about the appointment and how EMDR had answered some of my questions about concerns T and I had. I also told her that since that appointment I realized I don't know this other T how could I trust her with the biggest secret of my life. I reminded her that we dealt with the safer problems for a couple of years before I felt comfortable telling her. However with EMDR T that is more an option. At my next appointment we are going to to the preliminary work and the dive right in the following appointment. T reminded me I am a different person now and reminded me of times recently that I put trusted people in ways I had never before. She also told me that she would ask about EMDR at all our appointments however if I don't want to or can't talk about she wants and expects me to say so. I felt relieved because one of my biggest concerns is that she wouldn't want to discuss weekday happened with other T. Back when I was considering EMDR she said something like if issues came up about my abuse she would refer me to talk to EMDR t.which I interpreted to mean she ani would not deal withmy abuse. Which scares the he'll out of me.

Then I brought up the fact that alcohol is starting to become an issue again. She was awesome, as always. We discussed how seductive it is and easy to fall into the trap. She asked about severity and I explained it is not nearly as bad as last time but I don't want to go there. So we will start working on figuring out the pattern as there seems to be one but not sure what it is.she also said if EMDR t called she would not discuss alcohol with her and that we would first discuss anything she would say to EMDR. I told her to say what she thought will be helpful and beneficial. I told her the main reason I mentioned alcohol to her was that in all the paperwork for Emdrt I did answer some questions about alcohol so just in case she mentioned the topic i wanted to tell her first. At that point I asked if she wanted me to sign a release for Emdrt. She said you sigmed on for her so I am fine with that. Then she said how she is horrible when it comes to paperwork and one day she will get sued. I promised i wouldnt sue her.....besides she has been doing this for about 40 years it hasn't had issues yet...