First of all what you described that took place it traumatic. Also, your life was threatened and your husband clearly has HUGE PROBLEMS and it's good that he is locked up right now.

It's understandable that with him absent along with how badly things escalated that right now you don't even know quite how to feel. You are in shock right now and that is a normal reaction to what you experienced and then suddenly it's over and the ABUSER is taken away and things are quiet. You have no idea how to process any of this and sadly you have been trapped for so many years with an abusive individual so you don't REALLY KNOW what it means to actually FEEL SAFE either.

What you do need to seek is help where you can see a therapist and make plans towards getting away from this abuser PERMANENTLY and start your long journey towards learning what SAFE actually means because this is ALIEN to you at this point. When someone spends so many years with an abuser, that person had no idea what living their life actually being SAFE means instead all they know is how to live their life according to the abuser. It's actually the same thing as someone being locked up for so many years that once they are set free they have no idea how to live that way anymore.
A lot of times these individuals just commit another crime so they can go back to being locked up because that's all they know how to be.

Yes, what happened to you is so not normal that it's shocking and in the news and a lot of people see it as a bad thing. To YOU some of this life you were living actually became YOUR NORMAL, yet a part of you did not want others to see that, yes, that is embarrassing and you know it was not right.

Take this as a blessing in that you have a chance now to get help, get away from that kind of life and find your way towards finally learning how to live your life "safer and more normal", and that will take some time and therapy.